‘A compelling, intricate, psychological exploration of the lies we tell ourselves and the truths we run from. Beautiful.’ ~ Angela Clarke, author of Follow Me
‘A gripping read; I tore through the pages, compelled by the intrigue of the mysterious disappearance and the beautifully paced revelations of Kate’s family secrets. An honest, compassionate portrayal of touchingly real characters and their familial relationships; the mistakes made, the regrets, the falling out, the falling apart, the forgiveness and the love.’ – Jane Elmor, author of My Vintage Summer
‘An emotionally powerful story of the impact of secrets and lies on the lives of three generations of women – a deeply satisfying and moving book, and a wonderful debut!’ – Sophie Duffy, author of Bright Stars
‘Amanda Saint’s intricately plotted debut novel is a juicy Pandora’s box of mysteries and revelations.’ – Alison Moore, author of The Lighthouse
When we discover the truth about others, we find ourselves….
Kate has a safe, happy, ordinary existence. Or so she thinks. When her husband Jimmy goes missing she is forced to re-evaluate every aspect of her life, and must confront the past to find a future.
Kate hasn’t seen her mother, Laura, for 25 years, and she cannot seek solace from her estranged father. Can Una, her paternal grandmother, provide answers about those who have seemingly abandoned her, and help her come to terms with the loss of those she loves? As If I Were a River is the emotional story of three generations of women and the impact of their actions upon each other…and themselves. It is a story of buried secrets, and of finding the courage to question the life you lead. Are we forever shaped by our past, or can we find redemption in making our own future?
Amanda is a nomad who writes for magazines and businesses when she’s not writing stories. Many of her articles are about engineering and technology developments for helping with climate change and sustainability. At the moment she’s house sitting with her husband but in the past fifteen years or so she’s lived in a tiny village on Exmoor, in London, the Lake District, Brighton and Lancaster, and also spent three years in New Zealand. She roamed up and down England on a canal narrowboat for several months too and travelled around the South Pacific coconut islands,
Australia and Asia.
When Amanda is not writing, she runs writing retreats and competitions through her tiny business, RETREAT WEST , and walks about in wild places. She studied Creative Writing and Literature
with the Open University and her short stories have appeared on the Fish Flash Fiction prize longlist, in the best-selling STORIES FOR HOMES charity anthology, and in literary magazines.
Amanda is currently working on her second novel and a short story collection. Her debut novel, As If I Were A River, will be published by Urbane in Spring 2016.